What are you doing when you feel nothing? Lost your way and everything seems so blur. My broken and these things made me couldn't control this self. Its like you are a sailor and you let the water came into your ship then it sank deep deep underwater. In this situation you didn't know what you have to do, you're panic. And you paralyzed by it. Then you dived into the water together with every you feel, and all those messy things that you can't tidy it up. Losing. And then you feel like an ugly duck. Everyone around was laughing on you cause you are too different. I can't even stand to see my reflection. Everything feel worst. I just can sit infront of my computer, and tell you everything I feel hoping there is someone who answer this question.